I wanna say something but I’m short on words.
I wanna do something but I’m not in charge of my own will.
I wanna fly up to the sky but only if I had wings.
It was bitten to death by the unknown force.
I still wanna fly but then I realized.
I was never meant to fly even if I wanted to fly.
I always tell me, ” Just Quit”.
Even so, no force would want to let me.
Neither I can take actions nor can I quit.
Oh dear myself which position are you in.
I asked myself, “You happy or sad?”
My heart came up with “You’re stuck in-between”.
Maybe both or maybe none I’ll ever be.
Searching for a way out, I lost who I could’ve been.
Hopeless and Helpless, Shadow and Dark
That’s all I’m and I shall never grow.
Lonely and Sad. Painful but still numb.
That’s all I shall ever feel. As no light ever shines through me.
One second I feel like I own every Happiness
Then it’s all numb and filled with nothingness.
What am I to do?
Take me away, please. While
I’m asleep or wake.
Take me away please, even if I might not wanna go now.
Cause I know, in the end, I would always wanna go.
Complicated as it seems, that’s who I’ve always been.
Mistaken for life. And I’m paying the bills.